Before I was a mom

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom -
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -
I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my lifeso much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

What a mess...

Between being sick with HFM, thinking it's funny to roll away while getting a diaper changed, and my stressful week, I just didn't care anymore. Pajamas half on, making a huge mess on the floor, playing with the cord of the (broken?) monitor while I drank my beer...

We really need to get that monitor fixed. But while Daddy procrastinates, it's a good toy, right? (while supervised, of course!)

Crawling

Just about there!

Yesterday, he started getting the coordination down with his arms and legs and he stopped pushing his head into the floor. He didn't really realize what he was doing, but he definitely got the movement right! We used the laptop, remote, and cell phone to lure him across the floor, but it worked!

I'm sure by the time he gets home tonight, he'll probably be a pro and we're going to be chasing after him!